5 weeks away from my due date

So here I am 5 weeks away from my due date and I can hardly stop moving from being so anxious. I just want thing to be perfect. I have almost everything I need for the birth of my daughter yet I feel so unready. Perhaps because things aren't as I imagined them this time around. There are so many things I'd like to be different.But at the same time life is something that comes and we either live it or let it pass us by. I am determined to live it. I can hardly wait to hold her in my arms. I ask for a healthy baby. I can't wait for Adrian to interact with his baby sister. To have that bond that all siblings have. I realize there is such an age difference (Adrian just turned 10 tuesday) that they may never be close but he is such a good kid that I know she'll be special to him. I also can't wait for Joe to finally hold his daughter. I know it's been hard for him because I'm the one carrying her but he'll finally get to be a parent and enjoy the blessings that come with that. I feel anxious,scared,and so very happy at the same time. Who knew those feeling were possible all at the same time? :)