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I've always believed people have a right to tell their story. It may not be interesting to anyone else but the beauty of the web is that you can post it anyway. I often have things to share like funny experiences, scary moments, or just want to write and this allows me that luxury. So read if you like, follow, comment, or go on to the next. Either way thanks for stopping by.
Parenting is a hard thing to do. Its one of those things that I believe no one knows just what they are getting into intil they have a kid. But then there is no going back, well for most responsible people anyway. There are always the men who spread their seed but dont take time to cherish it and the women who decide to give away their children. No one is prepared to be a parent no matter how much they plan for (or dont) a child. (I realize not everything is black in white) I have the fortune of being the mother of a 9 year old boy who is my adoration! Though I never could have imagined that having him would have had that affect on me. Except for when I was in elementary school still playing with dolls I never thought I'd have a child or even want one. I had big plans and none of them included children. I didn't like children.
But I'v learned that to see through the eyes of your child - is being exposed to this beautiful amazing world you have never known. Their joys become yours and their sorrows your heartache. You wouldn't stop at anything to take their pain away or to dry their tears. You end up knowing yourself better because of them. Motivation is just a look in their direction and life cannot be imagined without them. My son has always been my strength. When I have been in the deepest parts of my sorrows I have looked at him and had a reason to renew myself.
He is now close to being 10 years old and I embark on a new journey. Though this pregnancy is different I percieve the outcome to be the same. Another child to which my eyes will be opened to the wonders they will see. This time I am having a girl and though their will be differences the love can only grow for them both. So I look forward to more mistakes, more tears and frustration-but mostly I look forward to the smiles, and the peaceful look of a sleeping child
You know when the world seems to conspire against you....and there is nothing you can do to stop it? That's was today. Ok, Ok, so I'm being a bit dramatic but I've come to learn that being pregnant you can be dramatic. Hell, blame it on the hormones, it really is a good excuse. I woke up at 4:25 a.m to get ready for work and I new it was gonna be "one of those days." My allergies are killing me, my tailbone hurts, my legs and feet are swollen and my fingers ache. Yeah I think thats most of it. Oh joy! I decided long ago, before this pregnancy, that I am just not good a being pregnant. There are some woman that thrive at it. I hate them, just for that. :)
Who wants to be emtional, fat, swollen, tired, achey, hungry and naseous at the same time? Honestly, how do women pop out 10 kids? Anyway, back to my woes...work sucked. I work in dialysis and though things can go wrong all the time it really wasn't that bad of a day. However, when you add all the mentioned list of woes above, it makes for a crappy day. T.V sounds annoy me, even patients I like annoyed me, and yes I really want someone to say "don't worry I'll pick that up from the floor cause I know you don't bend down as easy as you used too!" Really is that so much to ask?
Perhaps for some it is. Lazy ass people! Ok, that was my venting for the day. Besides that things are going swell. My baby girl is growing and kicking (a lot). I've only gained 11 lbs so far and the doc says everything is going just fine. I am so excited about the 11 lbs (as oppossed to the 65 lbs I gained with Adrian) that i've decided to post pics. Just humor me,ok? I was never into girls showing off their belly but somehow this time around I think it's cute :) And yes, you even get the bare belly!
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