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I've always believed people have a right to tell their story. It may not be interesting to anyone else but the beauty of the web is that you can post it anyway. I often have things to share like funny experiences, scary moments, or just want to write and this allows me that luxury. So read if you like, follow, comment, or go on to the next. Either way thanks for stopping by.
I have to say that this past weekend was about the most fun I've had in months, and I hardly did anything. Friday Adrian and I decided to hit up Fat Cats for a little bowling and arcade fun. I am definitely not a bowler but our first game I actually had 2 strikes and scored like a 97-hey not bad for a rookie. But then came the second game and it seemed like no matter what angle I tried all I could hit was the gutter! And I did it 4 times in a row. With two tries each time that means I hit 8 flippin balls in the gutter! Not my proudest moment, by far. LOL We went on to the arcade games and raced some nice cars in the Fast and the Furious race car game. We also did a little target practice and some more racing. All in all, wings, fries, and cokes included it was a fun day. Saturday night we watched a few movies and went to bed fairly early. Then Sunday I hit up a friends BBQ. It was great chicken, fun people and nice weather. I couldn't have asked for anything more. So it was a relaxing low-key weekend yet it was exactly what I needed. Lately it seems like I am always on the go-especially cause of work- so having a chill weekend was great.
Then to top it all of, though today is Monday and work was super crazy- I cannulated my first patient today! YAY for me.
I think there are very few people left in this world that really know how to be a good friend. You know the kind that you can do anything with and still have a good time. The friends you fight with but still dont hesitate to call them when you need help. I wish I had more friends like that. Life long friends and although I haven't lived here all my life I want to continue to meet people and stay in touch with those I haven't talked to in a while. The ones you know really care and will mean it when they say "if there is anything I can do for you, let me know" and not just say it. The ones you are excited to hear from and are genuinely happy for when there life improves. I went to lunch today with a girl I used to work with and although we dont know each other that well I think its a friendship worth keeping. Relationships are so valuable these days, to me at least, that I hope to become a better friend to those people I already know and to those I will meet. Anyway I am very appreciative because its been a rough couple of days with my personal life and work so to have a pleasant meal with pleasant conversation was just what I needed. Thanks Jennifer :)
Its always the same, isn't it- we meet someone of the opposite sex, hope to find an attraction, hope to spark a connection, find the soul mate, the lover, the partner,blah, blah, blah and all the rest of that stuff. Its what humans live for, relationships, connection with other human being, intimate connections. So if we are all looking for it, why is it so damn hard to actually find it? Why do we go through relationship after relationship, heartaches and break-up and still not have it? What is it that makes it so hard to love someone and to trust them? But then sometimes even when you do find that person something is not right. Like they have different plans, goals, or attached emotionally else where.
I fell in love once. It was a teenage love but nonetheless, to me it was real and no one will change my mind on that. My heart got broken and for years I vowed never to let anyone else in. I hardened all emotions. To love was to cry and I would not cry anymore. It worked for a number of years, to keep my heart safe from heartache but now as I am older I am ready to find that connection again.
But saying that doesn't make it any easier. I see the obstacles in my path. For one I live in a place where 28 is past the expiration date. Most my age have been married for years are are on their 4 child at least. I also have a child that is old enough to have an opinion on who I bring into our lives. In past relationships I have kept him out of most of that part of my ife but now I see that I need to include him because it will affect him as much as it does me. It will be a new thing for me becuase I am not used to including him in relationships, mostly to guard his feelings. But I want someone that will find me having a child, as wonderful as my son, just one more appeal to my already good looks and charming personality (lol) :)So here's to a fresh new out-look on love and relationships. So all I need now is to meet eligible men....anyone know any? :}
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