Relationships

Its always the same, isn't it- we meet someone of the opposite sex, hope to find an attraction, hope to spark a connection, find the soul mate, the lover, the partner,blah, blah, blah and all the rest of that stuff. Its what humans live for, relationships, connection with other human being, intimate connections. So if we are all looking for it, why is it so damn hard to actually find it? Why do we go through relationship after relationship, heartaches and break-up and still not have it? What is it that makes it so hard to love someone and to trust them? But then sometimes even when you do find that person something is not right. Like they have different plans, goals, or attached emotionally else where.
I fell in love once. It was a teenage love but nonetheless, to me it was real and no one will change my mind on that. My heart got broken and for years I vowed never to let anyone else in. I hardened all emotions. To love was to cry and I would not cry anymore. It worked for a number of years, to keep my heart safe from heartache but now as I am older I am ready to find that connection again.
But saying that doesn't make it any easier. I see the obstacles in my path. For one I live in a place where 28 is past the expiration date. Most my age have been married for years are are on their 4 child at least. I also have a child that is old enough to have an opinion on who I bring into our lives. In past relationships I have kept him out of most of that part of my ife but now I see that I need to include him because it will affect him as much as it does me. It will be a new thing for me becuase I am not used to including him in relationships, mostly to guard his feelings. But I want someone that will find me having a child, as wonderful as my son, just one more appeal to my already good looks and charming personality (lol) :)So here's to a fresh new out-look on love and relationships. So all I need now is to meet eligible men....anyone know any? :}