Perspective

There's nothing like hearing about someone Else's problems to put some perspective on yours. This weekend I've been bummed, to say the least, because of certain issues in my personal life. I've moped around, cried, and just been crabby. Then this morning I open my email to find a letter my sister had sent me. See, my almost 8 year old nephew, Caleb, suffers from seizures and has been struggling with this illness for quite some time now. He's been put on all kinds of medications and those are damaging other things. Like his organs!!! Lately, his kidneys. Which hits close to home, seeing as how i work with patients in kidney failure. It is so hard to imagine that such a small child could be put through so much. I would, as any in my family would, give an organ, cells, heck a leg, an arm, to cure him but there is nothing we can do and that just makes it worse. When you are a parent all you want to do is take your childs pain away-knowing that you can't is painful. Anyway my sister, who is the rock in our family, you could tell, is closing in on hitting rock bottom. All of a sudden my personal issues seemed so petty. So insignificant! Here I am "crying over spilled perfume" when my sister, my nephew and her whole immediate family really, is going through some real trials. So i've stopped crying over my own silly issues and decided to do all I can to help my sister. My problems are nothing compared to a child in pain. We could all learn from it really. Sometimes we are so wrapped up in our own lives that we forget that there are so many out there that are suffering. Not only is he sick but the insurance covers minimal things for his treatment. So they've spen thousands of dollars out of pocket and still have more than 15 months of just one treatment. If the meds do even more damage to his little body then there will be extra things to pay for. Who can afford to pay 800 dollars a month in medication? Health care sucks! I don't believe people should suffer because of how expensive the system is.
Anyway my message to all - pray. Pray for my nephew. and pray that we will all stop being so selfish and help those in need. And praying for me to find a couple hundred thousand to help them pay for medical expenses would be nice too!

5 weeks away from my due date

So here I am 5 weeks away from my due date and I can hardly stop moving from being so anxious. I just want thing to be perfect. I have almost everything I need for the birth of my daughter yet I feel so unready. Perhaps because things aren't as I imagined them this time around. There are so many things I'd like to be different.But at the same time life is something that comes and we either live it or let it pass us by. I am determined to live it. I can hardly wait to hold her in my arms. I ask for a healthy baby. I can't wait for Adrian to interact with his baby sister. To have that bond that all siblings have. I realize there is such an age difference (Adrian just turned 10 tuesday) that they may never be close but he is such a good kid that I know she'll be special to him. I also can't wait for Joe to finally hold his daughter. I know it's been hard for him because I'm the one carrying her but he'll finally get to be a parent and enjoy the blessings that come with that. I feel anxious,scared,and so very happy at the same time. Who knew those feeling were possible all at the same time? :)